Other people have already said it, but i have to agree.
My dog, Sebastian, was born in my bed (i was in it – unaware of what happened until the next morning LOL) when I was 7 years old. I had him 14 years and he died in my arms in July. He was my best friend in the world, and he was the only family I ever had. I lost everything when I lost him this year.
Everyone knew how tough this was on me, and I kept having this urge to have another pet. No one thought I’d ever get another pet, Sebastian and I were 2 peas in a pod. There was no me without him. I took him to school, work, everywhere with me. We were a package deal — thats what I told my boyfriend anyway LOL. I kept telling myself I could NEVER replace Sebastian, and that no pet would ever fill any gaps in my heart.
I have this thing about me, I’m completely impulsive. I will do things that are a big effect on my life out of no where, and thats sort of what happened when I got lullablle.
I got Lullabelle 3 months after Sebastian died, I felt like it was too soon to do this and felt like I was just trying to fill some void. But i was thinking to myself the other day that i did not do it to fill a void or anything, I did it to help ease the pain. I mean, I don’t know how I can possibly explain how much i loved my dog, and i felt like my world fell down. I went into a bad depression, and I’m sort of glad I’ve got this impulsive side so i wouldnt of impulsively gotten lullabelle.
Having Lullabelle made me feel happy, and it distracted me from crying all the time and thinking about Sebastian. I still cry, sometimes i hold lulla and cry. But then she does something silly and makes me smile. And this is why I got another pet so soon, because I needed a reason to smile again. I could have waited, but truthfully the pain of losing Sebastian will never ease or go away.
I’ve got Sebastian’s pictures hanging everywhere, and I tell Lullabelle how much her big brother would have loved her, beacause its true. He loved to play wtih bunnies. He brought a couple home (no he didint ever kill or hurt them!!! He just drug them against their wills and helped them dig their holes LOL). So when you think that you’re trying to replace your pet, everyone already knows deep down that they cannot, and sometimes another one just helps with the pain that losing someone you love causes. Like i said, I needed a smile, and thats what lulla’s purpose is.
An Ironinc thing — When I got lullabelle she was the last bunny, and she is the same colors has sebastian, white and grey. I didin’t really pre-plan her, I didin’t pre-pick her. I thought that was strange because I didint realize it until a couple weeks later. She also reminds me of sebastian in some of the things she does, like how she loves to eat my hair things and ignores most of her toys, and demands one end of the couch. Just subtle things that remind me of sebsatian that makes me smile. So don’t feel guilty, I think it was a smart choice. You won’t regret it.
