Well, here we are again… After being unwell the past 2 weeks, being diagnosed finally and unfortunately with an enlarged heart and a leaking heart valve (racking up on over 3k of bills), improving in the last couple of days being on her heart medication and only just coming home from a checkup to get the all clear my beloved Pand (7 year old) has passed away just a couple of hours ago from what I presume to have been a heart attack barely giving me time to scoop her up before realising there was nothing I could do as she was unresponsive and had already started agonal breathing before quickly passing.
I hope she wasnt hurting…
She has gone to be with her sister who we lost not even 2 years ago from gut stasis (euthanised) and my previous 2 year old who I lost from complications of gut stasis and cardiac arrest (rushed into emergency high risk surgery).
Im now bunnyless, extremely depressed (ive been diagnosed in the past with clinical depression and beyond devasted as I had the hope because she was not in active heart failure that she would have more time before her heart would give out, paired with her improving condition but life/death is ******* unfair and cruel to no end.
I still feel I did not do enough, could of picked up on all of this earlier and just all round like an utter failure as I had promised her sister I would look after her and I just couldnt fix her, otherwise I would of…
