Rachel has left to join Brighton

[melbunny]

Rachel is gone. She had blood work done tuesday and got the results this morning. They were not good. She wasn’t herself when i got her out of the cage so i had my mother rush her to the vets. I was supposed to be taking her to see a specialist tomorrow. I had a horrible feeling all day. And almost started crying multiple times I got a call at work from Dr. Brady saying Rachel was in really bad shape. She couldn’t use her front feet and she already had a screaming fit. They had given her oxygen. I could either rush her to Gaithersburg to the specialist or i could put her down. I knew she was really really bad so i opted to come in and do the later.She said i could come in when my shift finished, but i couldn’t. I couldn’t work the last two hours knowing what i had to do. The whole conversation occurred with me sitting on the floor behind the counter at the pharmacy crying. Tarra told me just to go. Don’t worry about anything. I got there as fast as i could, but i was too late. Dr. Brady told me Rachel had passed away. They left for a few minutes and she was gone. I didn’t get a chance to say goodbye and i loved her. If i knew i would never get to see her alive again i would have loved her all morning. I would have kissed and hugged her lots before i put her in a crate. I would have let her feel i loved her more than just telling her before she left..

My baby girl. My princess is gone. She was the bunny i’ve had the longest (minus Leah). She was never the same after Brighton passed away though. I can’t imagine going down stairs and not seeing her. She’s always been there. Poor Essy she is a widow 4 times over. I don’t know what i’m going to do with her. Try to bond her with the other three…. I got home and held her and told her the news. She never got to say goodbye either. 

I’m going to get Rachel cremated. She can sit next to Brighton on my shelf….

I can’t type anymore….. Not tonight.. The photo is the most recent of Rachel. All of my good ones are on the external hard drive. I don’t have any newer ones since my lap top isn’t that old….. It’s hurts so bad…..

[Sarita]

Big hug to you. It does hurt to lose our beautiful furbabies.

You have been blessed with caring for Rachel so well – she was so lucky.

Cry your eyes out, you’ll feel better and take time to grieve – grieving hurts but it’s necessary.

[PuddleJumper]

((HUGS)) So sorry for your loss. Binky free sweet bunny!

[Chessie & JJ's Mom]

(((big hugs)))
… I feel your pain …
~Binky Free Rachel~

[melbunny]

Thanks. I appreciate it. *hugs back* I got up this morning (early but sleep eludes me) and it just doesn’t seem all that real…..I guess i’m in the numbing stage right now….

[Beka27]

I’m so sorry. Hugs.

(Binky free Rachel!)

[Ali925]

Oh I’m so sorry.. You did everything you could and more… Rachel was blessed to have you Healing vibes to you and your other buns.

[TriBun]

Oh Melissa, that is so sad. My heart goes out to you.

[tobyluv]

I’m very sorry to hear about your sweet Rachel.

[RabbitPam]

I’m so sorry to read about Rachel today.
It will be hurting in your gut for at short while, but then it will ease up a little. Take everything at a pace you are comfortable with. We understand how hard it is for you right now. Just remember she loves you and always will.

{{{{{{{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}

[Lopdad]

I am so sorry to hear this!! My heart goes out to you.

[Kokaneeandkahlua]

I’m so so sorry She’s at the bridge with Brighton, healthy and whole smiling down on you thanking you for all you did.

I thought this was nice and wanted to share

Rainbow Bridge: Sequel To The Original

Oh, when we get to Heaven
We hope that we will find
The souls that once we loved
Who left us all behind.

Some left us at the right time
They left this world in peace
Others left too sudden
Without the chance to say Goodbye,
They were gone before we had
The chance to even cry.

There’s a special place for grownups
A special place for kids
Me? I’ll be on the other side
The side called Rainbow Bridge.

Across the dark green meadow
A’top the hills I’ll run
Where the colors from the rainbow
Glitter from the sun.

And there I’ll find my sweetheart
Running fast toward me

[BinkyBunny]

 I’m so sorry. I understand the pain you feel.    It will take time to heal. 

You took very good care of her and I have no doubt she felt loved by you.  The last moments don’t overshadow the love she had her whole life. I know how hard it is though prevent the heart-breaking thoughts of what she went through to replay in your head, (I do understand that very well), but in the bigger picture, they were a small part of her life and she is at peace now.   You filled  her life with love and care and that is what shines through it all. 

Binky Free Rachal!  

Hugs to you.  And like Sarita said, cry it out.  It can offer relief and healing.   I think I must have cried enough tears to fill an ocean when Jack passed, (and I still can get very sad and need to let it out).  

It takes time. Loss hurts.  During the severe stabs the pain, I just wanted it  to hurry up and heal already, but yet it wasn’t—So I reminded myself of how grateful I am for why it hurts….because of the love I feel.  Though it takes time, the pain does get better, and the love is what sticks around and fills in the sharper edges of pain. 

[jerseygirl]

I’m so sorry Melissa. I rather think animals know, Rachel would know how much you love her. She has Brighton now and you and Essy can take comfort from one another.
*Binky Free Rachel !*

[bunnyfriend]

Awh I’m very sorry ): It sounds like you loved her a lot and took good care of her, I’m sure she was very happy. Binky free Rachel!

[melbunny]

Hi,
Sarita, bunnnyfriend, jerseygirl, Lopdad, PuddleJumper, RabbitPam, BB, Kokaneeandkahlua , Tribun, tobyluv, Beka27, Ali925, Chessie & JJ’s Mom:

Thanks everyone! I really appreciate it. I love all the rabbit boards because everyone there understands. If you don’t own a bunny you really don’t understand what it feels like to lose one.

Right now It still doesn’t seem real. I think somewhere in the back of my head doesn’t want to believe she’s gone. I keep hoping it’s a bad dream. It’s odd since i haven’t felt this way before with losing a pet. I guess because i got to say goodbye with them… … I try to take comfort she is with her beloved Brighton now. She was never the same after he passed. Always seemed depressed…

I think Essy is missing her. Normally she is not very much of a human bunny, but she’s been letting me pick her up and somewhat cuddle. I might try to pair her with Beka. Beka has always been the third wheel in Mary/Leah’s realationship. She might like to have her own somewhat. That’s if they can both get over their respective bunnytude.

Kokaneeandkahlua — That poem is so beautiful. I found a person on etsy that makes engraved memorial picture frames and you can add a poem to it. I think i’m going to use this one for Rachel’s.

BB: Thanks for putting into words how i’m feeling. I’ve haven’t really been able to define it. I keep telling myself all this, but the other thoughts keep creeping in…

[melbunny]

 A tribute to my little princess. It’s taken me a week to do this. My mind just doesn’t want to accept she’s gone. That she’s still there. Though i keep telling myself that it’s not true. Essy is still besides herself. She’s so depressed. I gave her a stuffed bear to cuddle with and she shoves it away. I guess it’s not the same as Rachel or Brighton was. Myself, i wonder why i haven’t cried more. I can’t help, but wonder if i cried out all my tears in the days and day of her passing. I’m just numb to the fact. 

Rachel was my princess bunny. All my buns have their invididual personalities and Rachel was the little Princess. She was haughty and sweet at the same time. She was sick for so long. She also missed Brighton terribly. She never bonded with any other bun like she did Brighton.

In my tradition of making memorial video’s here is mine for Rachel’s. Hop freely my love….http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIxx0dpoNtA

 

[lashkay]

Rachel was a beautiful little princess…healing vibes to you. Beautiful memorial!

[melbunny]

Thanks lashkay ^^

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