Moshu : 2014 – Forever

[Avantika]

How many of you remember Moshu, the bunny from India who had a rough first year?

Its been close to three years I haven’t been on BB, but both Moshu and I owe a lot to this place, which is why I want to share the news of her departure here.

Moshu was around 4 years and 6 months when she breathed her last on November 27. Her demise was sudden. I didn’t see it coming. AT ALL. I am not sure whether the thing that killed developed abruptly or whether it was something she was battling silently since a while. I just got no sign. I want to know more about it, for which I will be making a separate post in another section.

I miss her a lot but I dont get tears anymore, something which makes me loathe myself. She was and is a great friend. Gave me so many kisses. Let me kiss her like monster for hours She was very tolerant. Never demanded anything. Never complained. But at the same time, was a badass bunny who ran after cats and made them run for their life

Nothing prepared me for this loss. I feel guilty for so many things. Wish I could go back in time and make her feel more loved. She deserved every bit of love she received and even more.

I want to thank BB, especially Bam and JerseyGirl, for helping me out with different issues over different times. I owe the first year of her life to this place.

I dont want to get over her death anytime soon. She wasn’t an acquaitance; she was and is my first child and I dont know if it makes sense or not, but I want to stay in grief for a while. I dont know what else to do. What to do with the guilt and the apologies I owe to her, till we see each other again, if ever.

[Wick & Fable]

Welcome back to BB, and I’m so sorry to hear about Moshu. Your post makes it so clear that she was loved and cared for, and her tolerance at the very least shows how much she accepted you as a source of love and care.

Rabbits are fragile, and I hope to some degree you find comfort in knowing she doesn’t seem to have suffered. While rabbits are serial hiders of their pain, it sounds like you had a great read of who she was and her behavior. If she was happy and loving the days approaching her passing, she probably passed peacefully, with love in her heart for you.

You should not loathe yourself for not crying — humans deal with grief and it comes in stages. Eventually, we do need to stop crying, and it’s a part of our processing. The desire to stay in grief and hang onto the memory isn’t unusual either — you want her to stay on your mind and have these emotions about her, so don’t feel guilty or hatred in feeling how you do. They are valid feelings that you rightfully can hold.

Binky free Moshu.

The answers provided in this discussion are for general guideline purposes only. The information is not intended to diagnose or treat your pet. Seek the advice of your veterinarian or a qualified behaviorist.

[Bam]

Hi Avantika,

I of course remember you and beautiful Moshu very well. I’m very sorry to learn that Moshu has crossed the bridge. I saw your other thread about the mass, I will try to look for info on that. We bun owners can pretty much only go by our buns’ appetite and general behavior, and very often rabbits don’t show overt signs of illness until they are in critical condition.. 

Moshu was a very lucky bun to get you for a hoomin and I’m certain she knew she was loved. Animals know, they don’t have to rely on spoken language the way we do. They read us a million times better than we can ever hope to read them. I do however know all too well the feelings of guilt and regret that seem to inevitably follow upon the loss of a loved bun. I lost my Bam in August. 

I think I can relate to the feeling of wanting to stay in grief for a while. It’s like a deep wish to celebrate the memory of the loved lost one.

I hope you are otherwise well. I hope you and Moshu will meet again.

Binky free ****Mochu****

[LittlePuffyTail]

I’m so very sorry for your loss of Moshu.

I remember you both.

It’s so very hard to say goodbye. More so, I think when it’s so sudden. And it’s normal to feel guilty when a bunny passes. I’ve felt guilt over every bunny I’ve lost. So many questions, could I have done something different, etc.

Moshu was very lucky to have you. 

 

(((((Binky Free Moshu))))))

[jerseygirl]

I absolutely do remember you and Moshu and how much you cared for her. I am so sorry you had to say goodbye to her. She really was very lucky to have you.
Please don’t feel badly that you no longer are crying, she would not want you so sad everyday. The happier memories come after you move through grief. xx
***Binky Free, Moshu***

[Avantika]

BB is a beautiful place. Everyone just knows the right things to say. Also, I’m touched you all remember us.

2016 onwards, I got occupied with work. Moshu’s health was stable as well; she got her last bout of stasis in November 2015. Her GI health was never perfect though.

India has a lot of stray cats and dogs and I fed and took care of some of those around my home and workplace. Having issues of chronic fatigue, I guess i felt drained most of the time. I know I did the right thing by taking care of the strays but I hope Moshu was okay with it too. I wish i could go back to the time when it was just she and I. She liked being on her own mostly but I live in this fear these days that I was unfair to her.

Thank you Bam and everyone else who took out their time and figured out that it was bloat that took her away. It was painful realizing her last moments weren’t so painless.

I am waiting to meet her soon. Whats so good about our lives except for our furry children.

Thank you all

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