Lost my BunBun

[MsBunBun]

I had Ms BunBun for 8 years. She was a very affectionate boon, always licking my fingers or face. I couldn’t ask for a more wonderful companion.
Unfortunately, I lost her yesterday. 2/13/18 the day before Valentines Day. She had a growth on her stomach that started out so small like a pea, then within 2 weeks it grew to the size of my palm. I took her to a specialized vet and they told me surgery is the only way to remove the mass. 2 days later, she had a seizure, I rushed her back to the vet and they prescribed pain meds, antibiotics.
I took her home with me, she was still eating and drinking, going to the bathroom. Until the day of the surgery, 6 days later, she looked tired, weak. I held her and told her everything was going to be alright, that she will get better, I kissed her forehead, she licked my hand. And that was the time I saw her.
2 hrs later, I got the dreaded call that she passed. The vet said the mass was worse than they thought and it took over her lungs and brain. I screamed after I hung up the phone. I cried and cried my heart out, I couldn’t believe she was gone. Within 2 hrs I arrived at the vet to pick her up, they had wrapped her in a blue blanked like a baby, she looked like she was sleeping.
 I drove 45mins to her favorite field, climbed 1hr to a very remote hill top and buried her in the flower fields. I stayed and watched the sunset with her, until my eyes were dry, and heart was numb.
I came home and just started to dissemble her 2 story cage that I had for 8 years. Felt like a part of me has died along with her. The pain is so great that I wished I had gone with her.
They say time heals all wounds but I doubt I will ever be the same again, she was my fur baby, my wonderful sweet companion. I miss you my sweet BunBun, Until we meet again. 

[LongEaredLions]

I am so sorry for your loss. I had something very similar happen to one of my guinea pigs and it was absolutely devastating. Her burial sounds beautiful. I know how much losing a bunny hurts, sending all my hugs and love to you.

[Luna]

I’m sorry about your bun. The flower field sounds like a beautiful place. Know she is resting peacefully.

Binky free Ms BunBun

[Gordo and Janice]

No matter how many years it’s never enough. We had our little girl almost 8 years as well.

The burial and the place both sounded appropriately beautiful.

Yes, always feels like a part of us, a significant part at that, always dies along with our little ones. When we cleaned out her area and took out her cage, every little thing of “hers” that we removed just reinforced the foreverness of gone and the immense emptiness. But I think it was necessary to help move forward and move on.

Yes you are never the same but you heal. You can’t be the same. It’s because when they pass a part of you goes with them equal to the part of them that stays with you. So you are not the same but I think it’s a good thing.

We had our bunny cremated and keep her ashes in a little cedar box on an end table under a tiffany lamp that we always used as a night light in the living room at bedtime. So every night when I turn on the light and every morning when I turn off the light, she is in my thoughts. I put my hands on the little smooth box and feel it and think about her and giving her little nose, head, and ear rubs. And even though I will ALWAYS miss her (and I tell her so out loud) there is less crying and more smiling.

So understand your grieving is a process and sometimes it seems agonizing (at least it was for me). But it is necessary for closure.

Everything I have said you probably already know. This forum is still helping me to cope and by saying these things, continues to help me in this process.

Know our hearts are with you.

((Hugs))

Binky free (((Ms BunBun)))

P.S. Would love to see a picture of little Ms BunBun if you would like to share. l like putting a face with their little personality and know who was loved so much.

[Phil]

Just found your message,i lost my bunny jasper very similar he had on testical that grew so big in just two weeks i had no choice but have it removed he was 8 years of pure joy,he died during anasitic,my life is now so sad and empty every day is hell without him i loved him so much,i know just how you feel its awful,cant sleep or even move his little belongings,i miss him so so much?

[Cocoa]

I just saw this. I’m so sorry about your bunny.

[Flakie]

I am so so sorry for your loss. I lost my wonderful 10 year old Flakie 7 weeks ago and I still cry over him. I never dismantled his hutch but I did throw out all his medicines, toys and his favourite blanket. I had cut his blanket and put it on him in his grave in my back garden and put a beautiful plant on top.

You will miss Bunbun a lot but it does get a bit easier. I have pictures everywhere of my Flakie and his brother Poppy and some of his fur in a little pouch with a guardian angel figure in it which I love to look at.

We do everything we can for our bunnies and that’s what makes it harder when they go over the rainbow bridge.

Time will heal I have actually decided on adopting 2 rescue bunnies one has been in the rescue for 22 weeks now and I’m sure my beloved boys would be happy with this. Maybe in time you will feel the same.

Sending lots of hugs to you x

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