It’s been one day, and I am still crying a lot. Anytime I stop actively doing something, I begin crying over him.
He was like a child to me, I raised him up since he was a baby. I used to put him on the desk and hand feed him veggies when he was a tiny boy.
This forum, and the people on it, did a lot for Gustavo over the years. You guys taught me how to be the best bunny parent possible – diet, care, enrichment, and even help in crisis. He had a bout of stasis when he was one and almost died, but someone here suggested using baby gas drops and within an hour of administering them – he made a complete turn around. This was after numerous days of waking every four hours to give either meds or syringe feed critical care, to massage his belly, and push him to move. After vets turned us away saying there was nothing to be done, and to call them if he made it through the night.
His death was sudden. The vet had always regarded him as a healthy rabbit, one vet even called him the healthiest rabbit she had ever seen in her entire career. I fed him strictly organic veggies, pellets with the best nutritional content, and his favorite hay. He had a water fountain, and lots of toys. He was freeroam, and liked to hang out on my bed and do zoomies/binkies a lot.
I dropped Gus off to be cremated today. So far I have gotten a small chunk of his fur, a necklace to hold some of the ashes, a box with a heart-shaped picture window for his ashes, and saved his pellet dish (pellets were his favorite item in his diet). For Christmas I was given a ceramic lop bunny that today I spent hours painting to look somewhat like Gus.
I want to create some kind of memorial, something to honor him, and as you can see have been collecting things in order to accomplish this. But I just don’t know what to do with all of them. I don’t want a shrine, but something to remember him with.
To never forget my beautiful boy, Gustavo.
~ Raelinn (and once, Gus)
