Lambda passed in surgery…

[Isabel]

 My five month old Holland Lop, Lambda, passed in surgery today. Not only was it a routine neuter by one of the recommended vets by the HRS, he didn’t even make it into surgery before he entered cardiac arrest and died. The vet thinks it was a reaction to the anesthesia. 

 

I’m beside myself. I just cleaned up his cage and toys (I saved his favorite to keep with me). I couldn’t stand to look at his empty cage in my room. 

 

I feel like I don’t know what to do. It was so unexpected. I’m on the bus now to go speak to the vet about what happened. He wants to do exploratory surgery to figure out what went wrong. If he charges, I’m not doing it. I just don’t care. My rabbit is dead and knowing what did it or who won’t bring him back. But if he doesn’t, I’ll do it for the vet. He wants to know if it was his mistake or if it was inevitable. I understand that.

 

I’m so sad. I have zero appetite. I just want to crawl into bed. :-( 

[Sarita]

Hugs to you – I’m so sorry. I know you are hurting.

[CheriB603]

Oh I’m SO so sorry…

[ninjabun]

*Hugs*

[Isabel]

Thanks for the hugs, guys. It’s been a $*&!ty day. Everyone keeps staring at me on the street because I’m just constantly crying lol. It’s quite a sight.

I feel so emotionally drained. I can’t believe this happened. He was SUCH a sweet bunny. He would follow me around my apartment, give me licks without me even petting him. He loved loved LOVED food and was so easy to make happy. He would flop on the floor like a dog and just calmly coexist with me. He never bit, ever (unless, of course, he mistook your finger nails for pumpkin seeds ).I felt like we really bonded. I miss him so much. It’s so strange not to hear him jump up whenever I enter my bedroom… I don’t even know how to react. I just feel so lost right now. IDK. I’ve never lost a pet of mine (past the age of ten, when things didn’t really count). It’s so much harder than I thought.

Well, at least the molding on the walls will get a break.

[Beka27]

I’m so sorry for your loss.

It’s likely that there was something wrong with him that made him react that way to the anesthesia, something congenital that showed no signs or symptoms. From time to time rabbits do have a bad reaction to the anesthesia, and this really isn’t anything that would be known ahead of time. It doesn’t sound like the vet is at fault, it’s just one of those unfortunate things….

The grief of losing a pet is difficult. I lost my lop at the beginning of the summer, and while I try not to think about it, or dwell on how much I miss him, it’s tough. The pain lessens after a bit, but it’s always there under the surface.

Take your time and don’t be afraid to grieve for him. Hugs…

Binky free, Lambda…

[tanlover14]

I am so sorry for your loss, Isabel. I honestly cannot imagine the pain you are going through. But I hope you can eventually find peace with what has happened and offer your home to another lucky bunny. Not to replace, of course. But you are obviously a good bunny parent and you may find having another little companion can help you heal and understand.

<3 <3 Binky Free, Lamda.

[BubblesJo]

I’m so sorry Isabel. ((Hugs))

[Deleted User]

Isabel, my heart felt sympathies! Not much helps right now I know, … my thoughts and prayers are with you. I hope you will want to allow another loving little rabbit to share your life. Having that special companionship really can help ease the pain of loss.

[MoveDiagonally]

So sorry for you loss

Binky Free Lambda

[Craycrayaboutanimals]

Aww

I’m very sorry for your lost.

I bet Lambda is now at the rainbow bridge happily doing binkies and eating all of his fav treats. One day you see him again and you can be back together.

Lots of hugs,

craycrayaboutanimals

[RabbitPam]

I’m so sorry, Isabel.

[Valkyrie]

I am so sorry. I lost Merlin a few weeks ago and can honestly say that you will heal, although it will take time. The morning Mer died I had to go to work as soon as my husband and I buried him. I was non-stop crying all day and not all of my coworkers understood how much pain I was in. I found comfort in planting a flowering bush over where I buried Merlin and putting a little rabbit garden statue with it. It did bring me a lot of comfort and still does when I water it. If you are in an apartment you can always plant something in a pot as a memorial.

I also understand that you may be so mad about the neuter, whether at yourself or at somebody else. I am so mad at myself for deciding to neuter Bromley. I have gone through a terrible time these past two weeks because of my 5 month old bun’s neuter surgery. In all honesty I am not convinced now that it is worth it if you don’t plan on having more than one bunny. My vet said that there are not many health benefits to it (unlike females), it is just behavioral. Rabbit veterinary medicine is still so young in its development that the risks for any treatment are so high… Since I have had unneutered males for 20 years and never minded, I don’t know if I would do it again. And it has definitely made me decide that Bromley’s new companion will have to come to me already spayed or neutered because I can’t deal with the stress and heartbreak again. He is still growling at me every time I go near his cage.

At least Lambda went peacefully over the rainbow bridge. It may not seem like much comfort, but it is comfort all the same. Hugs to you!

[hannaroo]

I’m so sorry for your loss ((((vibes))) (((hugs))) it’s so sad when they go unexpectedly. It’s rare for things to go wrong in surgery when it’s so routine and I hope you can find a cause so you can let your mind be at peace xxxx

[LittlePuffyTail]

I’m so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Lambda. I know how hard it is to lose someone so beloved. ((((Hugs)))))

(((((Binky Free Little Lambda))))

[ScampersMom]

Oh Isabel, I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a best friend so unexpectedly is such a shock. Hugs to you.

[kralspace]

I’m so sorry about your bunny ;-(

they are such fragile, unpredictable little souls and I know how much you hurt.

(((((binky free Lambda)))))) and (((hugs to you)))))

[Isabel]

Thanks for all the love, guys. I definitely feel a lot better. I miss him everyday and my apartment feels empty without him, but he had a good life while it lasted. I even gave him extra pellets the day before he passed, which I’m really happy about 🙂

I’ve spent a lot of time at home with my family and dogs, and it’s helped me heal. I’m still very sad, but it’s not crippling.

But thank you again for the kind words. It’s indescribable to have comfort during such a hard time. I really appreciate it.

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