I hear Cotton

[bunnytowne]

Wow.  I noticed after Cotton had moved on that I would hear little tat tat tat tat tat of him chewing on his cardboard box noises.  And A thump  now n then.  I know it was Cotton.  And I would talk to him.  

I made a memorial for him.  A ceramic bunny I painted with Cottons hat on that he always wore when he played in the grass lol.  I burn a candle for him now n again.   I have a small ceramic bunny vase I painted to put on his memorial altar. 

IT does get a little easier.  Its 6 months as of Feb 11 .  I want yall to know it does get easier.  IT still hurts and I still wonder if I could have done something sooner.  But he wasnt falling over til well I took him in when he started falling over in his right hindquarters.  

You know what helped get past the pain somewhat  Well for the longest time I felt such quilt and remembered the bad timeswhen he was sick and he was in pain not eating in the end all he wanted was watermelon and a little bit of greens.  

Well what helped was  a thing on fb you get that says share from 1 year ago.  It was a video of Cotton in his good health and happy time.   So I started looking at the pictures and videos of the happy times.  I was ready to.  Now I can remember the better times not the sickness.  His little head popping up when I talk to him and his ears.  Dont you just love their ears lol.  I miss that. 

I still talk to Cotton.  There is a tuft of his head fur in a special type bag you can see thru on his altar and I kiss my finger and touch it.  It does get easier.  However. … I couldnt get another bunny.  Housing wont allow it.  I have to get cat or dog.  I got a cat right away.  

Problem.  I feel guilty bonding with her.  Cotton hewas jealous. I was resting.   I am having a hard time bonding with her tho. I feel good when I pet her in bed n all. I feel happy. Then I feel so sad cuz Cotton Boo is gone. I miss him. That cute widdle bunny face with the big blue eyes. His widdle ears popping up when I speak to him. His head popping up too. I just miss him so much still. Its 6 months on the 11th. I still feel bad trying to bond with the cat I tell myself Cotton would want me to move on. Then I remember how jealous he was and how he would attack and chew up my hands if I smelled like another bunny. He would bite my neck and gave me matching cheek bites lol. Made me love him all the more . lol. And I wonder to myself would he really want me to move on as jealous as he was. I do believe he would but I need my heart and head to believe it too. Its hard. I do laugh at the thought of his jealousy. It was so funny. I would have to wash 2x up to my elbows and change shirts if I petted or held another bunny. rofl. rascal. Yes Cotton I love you Boo. No one or nothing can ever replace you. Tears I would give anything for another bunny tho.  But at least I can have a pet.  

I hope I can get over the guilt of bonding with her.  Silly isnt it.  I will in time tho.  It all takes time.  That 4 letter word  I do like my cat tho.  She is 4 years old and I got her from the shelter.  She was only there a week.  Frightened confused.   Like a bunny would be.  

[MimzMum]

Awww…BT (((((((((Huge hugs))))))))
I like to think our past pets unite us with those they think will help us with their loss. They pick them out for us and guide us to them, if it is meant to be.

It’s been just over a year and a month since Pip left us, and it will be a year for both the boys in August/September. But every day there is something that lets me know they are still ‘with me’.
I see rocks with their faces on them (you know how you see shapes in patterns on inanimate objects?) or someone will post a bunny picture that reminds me of one of them.

Fiver…I thought of him sharply today. He came through as himself in my mind’s eye as clear as if he were standing right in front of me. Brought tears to my eyes. :'(

They haven’t left us. They’ll never leave us. They’re only a thought away. The noises we hear, that’s them. The flash in the corner of our eyes…they just whizzed past…’catch us if you can’ they say.

I will never forget Cotton Boo McChew. I hope he and Mimzy and Fiver and Pip are having a fine time in Paradise together. <3

[September]

I am so sorry to read of your losses of Cotton, Mimzy, Fiver and Pip. I have had many signs from Timothy. I just know that’s what they are. It’s a feeling that I can’t describe. And they came in abundance when he first passed, like he was trying to comfort me because I was suffering so much with grief and guilt. I will try to post some pictures soon to show you what I mean about the signs.

It’s been nearly 6 months and my grief was still there, following me around, but I was coping. I suppose that just about describes it. Then a couple of weeks ago I had a complete meltdown. It just came from nowhere. We were decorating a bedroom. I just started crying and crying and couldn’t stop. I felt something, like Timothy was there with us, it was so strange. I stood at the top of the stairs and looked down I could see him…well, not see him, but visualise him clearly with his little front paws on the bottom stair, waiting to come up. The house felt strange, the rooms felt strange. I felt a deep sadness because I knew he was there but couldn’t see him physically. I spoke to him and it made me feel better. I had to take some time to gather myself. I am not religious in that sense. I have not thought of myself as spiritual nor do I believe in the supernatural, but there was something about that day. Since then, I have felt a peace about me. I still think about Timothy everyday, but I can do it without so many tears. It was like he was telling me “you have cried too much now, mummy. Please stop. See, I am fine”. I hope that’s what it was.

They are with us because the overwhelming love for our bunnies is a tangible thing and it will never go away. It can’t. It’s impossible. So if it stays with us, then our bunnies stay with us.

Lynda
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[bunnytowne]

September that is so touching.  Yes I believe its true.  They hang about.  Telling us they are ok now and  dont feel pain and are binkying free. That its ok to move on.  They know we will never forget them.  How could we.  

[Luna]

My words feel kind of empty because Luna is my first bun, so I haven’t experienced the loss of a bun yet. But I do think they would want us to be happy once they cross Rainbow Bridge. Even if it means getting another companion animal, I think they would want us to be happy. As long as we hold them in our hearts and don’t forget them, I don’t believe it’s a bad thing .

[Manda]

t I had to put down my Cinni recently, she was a huge presence in my life for 13 years and I still miss her dearly but I am happy she lived as long as she did and I got to have her be apart of my life for 13 years. Almost a week after she passed I let my dog out in the yard and was watching him(he tends to get into trouble out there sometimes) I wasn’t thinking about my Cinni but I saw her hop across the yard( her back end was failing her in the end) and she looked plump and healthy and just hopped across my yard. I stood with my jaw on the floor thinking how could this be- and if I was wearing pants at the time I would have run outside but it is the dead of winter at 7 am and I’m ready to back to bed. She hopped to our shed and disappeared. I took that as a sign that my Cinni is out there not far away enjoying freedom and not feeling any pain. It brought me much comfort and I now focus on the good times I had with her and her cute pudgy face(she was a lop).
I got a new bunny right away because I know our bunnies have moved on and so should we. Plus MR Buns was pretty upset and I was afraid he was going to go into depression.

[Manda]

t I had to put down my Cinni recently, she was a huge presence in my life for 13 years and I still miss her dearly but I am happy she lived as long as she did and I got to have her be apart of my life for 13 years. Almost a week after she passed I let my dog out in the yard and was watching him(he tends to get into trouble out there sometimes) I wasn’t thinking about my Cinni but I saw her hop across the yard( her back end was failing her in the end) and she looked plump and healthy and just hopped across my yard. I stood with my jaw on the floor thinking how could this be- and if I was wearing pants at the time I would have run outside but it is the dead of winter at 7 am and I’m ready to back to bed. She hopped to our shed and disappeared. I took that as a sign that my Cinni is out there not far away enjoying freedom and not feeling any pain. It brought me much comfort and I now focus on the good times I had with her and her cute pudgy face(she was a lop).
I got a new bunny right away because I know our bunnies have moved on and so should we. Plus MR Buns was pretty upset and I was afraid he was going to go into depression.

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