I can’t bring myself to eat bananas

[Rio and Buns]

They were Desmond’s absolute favorite and every time I think about eating one or even look at one I get this pit in my stomach because I know he’s not here to demand I give him some. I would often take an unpeeled banana into our room, then I would peel one side and see how long it took him to sniff it out. It only ever took him a couple seconds before he’d run up to me and stomp his foot because I was always too slow to give him a piece (his words, not mine). Even if I mixed a banana up into oatmeal or cereal, he’d smell it and come running. And how could I deny this face? 

Desmond passed away on New Years Eve and I never officially posted about it on the Rainbow Bridge forum, so I thought I would do that today because I’ve been having a particularly hard time with it lately… I just miss him so much. I have my two girls – Quincy and Leonora – and they frequently make me laugh and smile, but it’s just not the same. I’ll laugh at something they do but soon feel myself getting sad because I wish my baby boy was here too, as he should be. He was so special to me and I’m not sure that I will ever love another bunny as much as I loved him. He was my absolute best friend. I still sleep with the towel he was wrapped in when he passed. 

I’ll be getting a tattoo of him, hopefully sometime in the next few months. He will be on my right hip, standing on his back feet and looking towards my heart. BUT there will be a tiny little banana tattoo there, so is he looking towards my heart or the banana? Typical Desmond James, I never could quite tell if he loved me as much as he loved that dang fruit. 

I can only hope that there is some sort of life after this and that I will be with him again someday. That hope is what keeps me going. 

Picture overload incoming… this first one is the first picture I ever took of him, just a day after we found him. My beautiful panda bun.

  

[Phil]

Such a darling. Its so sad my bunny Jasper died in jan I still feel awful too. He loved a treat of dandilion every day. I feel so sad when I see one now. They love you for giving them special treat its so hard to cope each day without them x

[Gordo and Janice]

So sorry. Our Icey passed a couple of days before New Year’s Eve, but you probably know that. Yes, all the special things (banana time for you) are hard because the precious little life that was attached to that thing, that made that thing great because of all it’s associated cuteness, is no longer physically with us.

I chuckle at his inconspicuous stance in the chair…adorable (and really like the desktop too by the way…nice). He was a beautiful “panda bun” as you say. And an appropriate name for the look in his eye, Desmond James…love it.

It looks like you treated him like and King. Thank you for that. And thanks for the picture overload (of course I don’t think it’s overload). I love seeing the bunnies when they were so happy and alive and comfortable. It brings joy to my heart. I hope you find an incredible artist for the tattoo that can capture his essence.

My thoughts are with you and Desmond James binkying free…

[Coco the Lionhead Bunny]

I’m so sorry for your loss. My sweet baby coco passed away just last week ? and I miss him so much. Bananas were his favorite too, as well as carrots.

[September]

So sorry. Desmond James was a beautiful bunny. I totally get the banana thing….my Timothy would only eat his hay if we rubbed banana on it. How is that bananas, kale and carrot tops make tears?. And dandelions can stab at our hearts?.

xx

[MountainBuns]

Oh, Im so sorry, he reminds me of my bun. He had beautiful eyes. Im hope you feel better.

Binky free, Sweet Desmond

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