Oh Sonn, I am so sorry! (((((hugs))))))) We were just speaking of this the other day. What a beautiful dog he was!
It is crushing, saying farewell to one who has been with you and shared your life for so long and with the loyalty that a dog does, they are built for it without doubt, and there is no other relationship quite like it in the world, the bond between canine and human.
I know it may not feel like it at the moment, but what a blessing he could be in your arms at the moment of his passing! What greater gift can we give than to stand by a loved one’s side at that important moment? I am sure he was grieved to leave the one who cared for him and loved him as you obviously did. But he waits for you now on the shores of Paradise and watches over you from there.
My dear Taiku was at the vets when I lost him this last October and I was unable to be with him, but my husband was there to give him comfort and those last, loving ear rubs. I’ll direct you to this poem which I hope will give you the kind of peace to read as it gave me to write:
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It seems very dark, but eventually turns towards that second star on the right and straight on till morning.
Saying goodbye…
I hate to do it.
It always seems so final.
It doesn’t help when people say that whatever or whomever was lost will always be with me.
I want to scream for how helpless I feel.
I want to cry until I can’t cry anymore.
I hate the rain for falling and falling and falling.
The clouds make it impossible for me to get my bones warmed.
I hate the sun for coming up.
I hate the stars for turning in their courses.
I hate the moon for shining in my window at night and waking me, so I can think of how sad I am.
In the morning, my eyes don’t want to open.
My legs don’t want to move forward.
My heart keeps going back to how things used to be, and wonders why it can’t stay there?
My life seems a miserable lot.
And yet if you hadn’t been part of my life,
I’d have no memories to visit.
I wouldn’t have a reason to miss you.
I wouldn’t have tears to cry,
Long sighs when I have to pull back the bedcovers and get up in the morning.
And occasional laughter that bubbles up for no reason.
I wouldn’t have had the love that you gave me,
Nor the friends that are doing everything they can to cheer me up.
And I would be emptier than I am now,
And not know the joy I will have someday,
At being able to say hello to you,
Again.
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God Bless! (((((((((((((((hugs for Sonn))))))))))))))