As you may have noticed I have not been on this website in a long time, life you know? This is so not the post I wanted to be able to post….. Flopsy died a week ago today. He had been sick for a couple of days & I had a vets appointment made for him for Monday. Sadly he did not make it. They offered to do an autopsy on Flopsy but I didn’t want one done. In my mind it’s better not knowing.
He wasn’t the “perfect” bunny far from it. In the short time I had Flopsy he managed to- tear up my history textbook (boy that was hard to explain!), tear up my script for the play (again hard to explain) eat my tampons, chew a hole in the floor, escape from his cage multiple times, & generaly act like a grumpy old man. But I still loved him more than words can explain. He cracked me up daily being… well himself.
It’s still so hard for me to belive his gone. Every time I walk into my room I expect to see him laying on his little bunny “couch”. But his not there. Waking up is the worst. I roll over in bed & it’s such a huge shock to not see him. I hate it. I hope time will help heal the huge hole in my heart, though I know it will never fully go away.
Most of all I hope Flopsy knows how much I love him. Ever day I beat myself up for all the times I got anoyed with him, & the time I was toying with the idea of finding him a new home. I know I wasn’t the perfect bunny owner- at the time I got him I knew squat about bunnies- & I know I made plenty of mistakes. But he never once got angry & bit me. He always loved me fully & deeply & I thank him so so much for that. It seemed at times Flopsy was the only one I could talk to no matter if it was just stupid teenage drama or deep stuff it always seemed like he cared. I will never ever forget that.
When I first got him I was a selfish 16 year old, but man when I looked into that dirty cage & saw that teeny tiny sick bunny something tugged at my heart. I’m so glad my friends & I shown up to early to that movie & went to that flea-market. I shudder to think what would have happened to him if we hadn’t. He taught me so much in the very short time he was with me. Flopsy taught me how to love no matter what, & how to put people first ( that was hard for me to do before him). I’m only 17 now but I know I will never forget him. And one day when I get another bunny ( becouse we all know once you have one you can’t stop!) I’m going to smile & think about all that I’m in for. Thanks Flopsy. I love you.
Binky Free Mr Grumpy Pants. I hope your having fun at rainbow bridge.