Hello all,
It has been quite a long time since I’ve been on this forum (a few years I think) and a lot has changed.
Several months ago my beautiful baby Esther stopped eating. I knew it was different than all the other times, it was like she had no fight left in her. We brought her to our vet, then transferred to the emergency for overnight care. Around midnight we got a call that she was getting worse. Her tests showed she was in kidney failure. We made the decision to euthanize her.
I miss her beyond words. I love all my animals, but Esther was just different. I don’t know what it was but she was just so so special to me. It still doesn’t feel real to me, that Esther, beautiful, lively, affectionate Esther, could be dead. Her partner, Blaze has been doing okay, although he has become much more anxious, shy and withdrawn without her. Part of me thinks he needs a new partner, but I know I am not ready for that.
I do not regret my decision in any way, I know it was her time. If I had decided to keep fighting it would have been selfish. She would have only suffered more.
Thanks for reading my little rant.
I love you Esther ❤️