Hi so this ended up being way longer than I thought but thanks if you read this.
I miss him. He was a healthy rabbit, I don’t know what went wrong. He wasn’t eating and acting strange Monday morning so my dad took him to the vet. He had GI stasis and was very bloated. Tuesday morning the vet called and said he was less bloated and had pooped a bit. I was so sure he was going to recover and that I would be able to bring him home on Wednesday. Tuesday evening the vet said he was getting much worse and would have to be put down if he wasn’t better by morning. We went to visit him because we knew it may be the last time we saw him. He had stopped breathing before we were able to get there. I saw his dead body and I just couldn’t understand how he could be gone. I didn’t want to leave him, I just wanted to pick him up and hug him. We said good bye to him and left.
I don’t understand why he had to go. He was still young. I was doing everything right for him. He had a good diet and wasn’t sick with anything else. We don’t know what caused him to have stasis. It was the first time he had gotten sick. I got him 4 years ago when he was 2 months old. I was expecting him to have at least another good 4 years with us. He was my first rabbit. We got Dasher a year later so he would have a friend. Dasher was supposed to be a boy so they could be together but at the time I didn’t know that uneutered rabbits weren’t supposed to be together. I used to let them play together when Dasher was a baby but stopped as soon as I realized that Dasher was a girl at around 4 months.
After 3 years of wanting to get Cookie Dough neutered so he could live with Dasher we finally got him neutered in October. I was so excited. It was my dream and I had big plans for them. I had their cages next to eachother for the past few weeks and they were so excited so see eachother. I let them out in the play pen one at a time and they would follow eachother. Cookie Dough liked to steal hay from Dasher through the bars and Dasher got kinda mad but it was cute. They got to meet once after his neuter but had to separate them after 2 seconds since Cookie Dough was still a bit hormonal. I know I should have waited longer to introduce them. I wanted them to meet this week or next week but sadly he passed away before they could meet
I’m sad that he left me but I’m also sad that he had to leave Dasher behind. Cookie Dough would have been happy as a single bunny but Dasher wants more attention than I can possibly give her. She would be so happy to have a friend. I spend more time with her now but she makes me feel sad too because she was left behind.
I really want another bunny but I don’t know if that will happen. I don’t know if I’m trying to move on too quickly. I don’t think my family is ready yet. Maybe later we will get a friend for Dasher.
The first few days were pretty rough. I felt like I was trying to escape a terrible nightmare. Knowing that he is dead is one thing but then realizing that no matter how many times I walk by his cage I won’t see him is just heart breaking.
I’ve taken pictures of him recently. I never took many pictures because I figured he would be with me for a long time but I’m so glad I got some cute pics before he left. I will be making a slide show when I have time.
I miss him so much but I feel at peace knowing I did all I could for him. I’m feeling a lot better today. The happy moments with him were worth all the pain. It’s better to have loved and lost than to have never had him. I don’t know why but I feel like his death has helped me be a happier person. I’m still very sad but it’s the small things that make me smile. I feel like there is a new meaning to life and a greater purpose to live for. I don’t why I would feel this way after something so tragic like this, it’s confusing. I just try to remember that he won’t have to suffer anymore. He is in a better place and I’ll see him again some day.