Confused and wondering

[cinnybun2015]

I’m sorry if I’m not posting this in the right place- I couldn’t find any other place suitable.

So, there is a solid opal Mini Lop buck a little distance from where I live available for sale. He’s 8 weeks old. Very, very cute from the pictures. There is a chance that I may be adopting him…

I am so confused, because although I desperately want a bunny back in my life, is it too soon? I have grieved over Cinnamon and I miss her every day. I’m just beating myself up over this desicion, because I just feel so conflicted… I know that I want a bunny back in my life, but I’m worried that Cinny will hate me for it. Maybe that’s stupid, but I do. Even if she’s passed over the Rainbow Bridge, I still worry about her and worry about my desicions around her and regarding bunnies. It may be hard to answer, but can anyone give me some words of guidance or advice or personal experience?

Thank you so much.

[Ohbunny]

I lost one of my buns this week, too. So I can relate to how you feel, but I don’t think your buns would hate you for loving and caring for another buns. If anything I’m sure cinny would do a binky over rainbow bridge to know you were able to share the love you two shared with another buns.

[cinnybun2015]

Thank you, Ohbunny. That makes me feel better.

I am so sorry that you lost your bun.

[cinnybun2015]

I feel like I’m ready, but I also feel guilty and I don’t know which to feel.

[Ohbunny]

I understand the guilt. I’ve spent this week wondering if there was anything I could have done to have saved Sugar Plum, but I also know that having other buns to focus on has kept me from going into a deep funk over it. A new buns isn’t a replacement. You will always have memories of cinny, but don’t let it stop you from offering love to another buns. That’s how I think of it. The place my sugar plum came from . . . We drove 2 hours to an unknown area to pick her up. When we got there she was in a shed full of rabbit crates stacked one on top of the other. I like to think she was meant for our home, even if only for a short time. She was safe, clean, fed, and loved. Much more than if she had never come to us. That’s how I think when you mention adopting another. Your grief over cinny’s passing doesn’t have to mean that you never offer your love and a safe place to a buns that might not know any kindness in its life otherwise.

[cinnybun2015]

Thank you, Ohbunny, that really does make me feel better about myself. I talked to Cinny today- I know that might sound weird, but I walked up and down the sidewalk and talked to her, to myself. I told her about the mini lop. It made me feel better, because she might get the message. Or something like that… I just hope that she does understand from wherever she is.

Again, I am so sorry for your loss of Sugar Plum.

[Ohbunny]

That makes perfect sense to me. There is no right or wrong way to grieve.

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