Broken heart

[benjismum]

I’m coming on this forum as I am literally in despair and never felt so low and heartbroken in my entire time on this earth so far. I run a lost and found animals page on Facebook in my local area. A local girl kept posting her baby rabbit kept escaping (more than once) When I messaged asking if it was found it had been (again several times) She said she was thinking of re homing it as she cant cope with it were her words. I have my own indoor rabbit and foster too so my outdoor cages were full, but if i had room i wanted to say I would have him. This is the bit that turns to the heartbreak. Wednesday I get a post on my fb page the local postman has seen a small white rabbit running into a locked gated housing area. He tagged me on the page as thought I could help. As soon as I dropped my daughter at school i rushed across town to the area it was last seen. I couldnt get in the locked gates as they were private so but i could see a lady de-icing her car in there so thought i would go in when she came out. Then i saw a hole in the back fence so walked round and looked through. I saw the rabbit scampering. I then ran back round and she was driving out so i ran in. What i saw next is what i cannot ever ever get from my mind, bearing in mind i am the biggest rabbit lover in the entire world. There was this 5 month old baby white fluffy ball on the floor broken legged, splayed frozen on the floor staring up at me. I was nearly sick with horror. I grabbed him and wrapped him in the towel I had taken and held him close to warm him. Right then and there he gasped three times and died in my arms.I have never ever cried so much in my entire life. I rushed him shaking crying to the nearest vet. She said there was a faint hearbeat but he was frozen and broken and nothing could be done. and then he was gone. This beautiful rabbit was treated horrendously by this terrible family, not cared for, lost and died terrified frozen and probably in agony. I knew this rabbit for minutes only yet I am broken from the site of him on the floor. The girl was told and didn’t even bother to collect him. she then went out one hour later and bought another 2 rabbits from a local pet store. She hasn’t shed a tear, couldn’t care less and I am left broken and sickened at the world we live in and the vile human beings that live in it. I actually have felt suicidal over this. People would think I am mad, over what many people see as just ‘a rabbit’. I am plagued with what ifs..what if i had taken him weeks earlier off her and bought another cage.what if i had arrived at the car park an hour earlier and found him. what if the car i had seen de-icing was the one that broke his leg (though i think it was already broken) and if i had waved at her she wouldnt have driven off, what if the postman had only jumped over the gate and rescued him at 5am..what if what if. All I know is this broken beautiful baby in a heap frozen has made me almost want to escape this vile world. I just dont know how to erase this image from my mind and how to move forward with my life. Im just broken into pieces and cant function.My soul is tortured forever.

[Sirius&Luna]

I’m so sorry this happened to you, and that poor bunny. Please please realise this is not your fault. You did far more than most people would, for a pet that wasn’t yours, and of course it is tragic and heartbreaking, but it’s not your fault for not getting to the car park sooner or not waving at the car. These things are out of your control, and you did everything that you could. It is not your fault, that rests solely on his neglectful owner. I hope the poor little creature realised he was safe and loved for his last moments, and you brought him some comfort.

Can you report the girl to anyone? I can understand your horror knowing that she has another two bunnies to neglect.

[Ellie from The Netherlands]

I’m reading this story with great sadness and shock It’s horrible to see that people mistreat such wonderful animals like this. I hope that the little one is in a better place now, free of all the pain and sorrow he had in his short life. Although, it must have been a comfort to him that there was a caring person with him at the end of it. Thank you for caring where others did not, and binky free little one!

Hopefully something can be done about the owner, maybe the vet has some connections with the RSPCA? I know you’re heartbroken over this, but please don’t try and blame yourself for anything. You helped where others turned away. Thank you for taking on this horrible and difficult task. I hope you can help other rabbits in the future, this bunny was obviously beyond help but I’m sure he/she felt your kindness.

[Bam]

I’m so very sorry this happened. Thank you for trying to save this little one. The world needs more loving, caring people like you.

I’m so sorry you had to see this, but I’m grateful the poor little bun didn’t have to die alone. Be proud of that. No one person can save all suffering bunnies. Sometimes realizing that is incredibly painful. But I honestly believe we should carry on and try our best to help those we can help.

Binky free, ****little fluffy white bun****

[Deleted User]

You should report this horrible person to the RSPCA or someone! She should not be having any animals. To have an animal escape multiple times not only shows that she has no sense of responsibility but that her living accommodation for any rabbit is NOT suitable. 

What you did for that poor baby in her last moments was all you could and needed to do. She got more love in those moments then in her whole life and as harsh as this seems — so many rabbits don’t even get that. I think what you did was amazing so do not blame yourself. I hate the way people still think of rabbits, like they are nothing and just as food. Its why these forums have and do make such a difference, and have done. More and more people are treating rabbits so much better but there is still work that needs doing. Keep up your great work, and report this vile human being!  What ever rabbits she has now should be taken from her. 

RIP little one x

[benjismum]

Thank you for taking the time to reply I am very grateful for all your kind words.I’m scared to report her incase she harms the new ones.she seems to have mental problems.I know the postman said he will. I have tried half befriending her to find out about them and try protect them.I asked what they eat she said just carrots.no hay.horrendous. people in this world are just too much for me to bear and I can’t deal with the pain in my heart for all those that suffer.

[Deleted User]

Posted By benjismum on 2/09/2018 10:15 AM

Thank you for taking the time to reply I am very grateful for all your kind words.I’m scared to report her incase she harms the new ones.she seems to have mental problems.I know the postman said he will. I have tried half befriending her to find out about them and try protect them.I asked what they eat she said just carrots.no hay.horrendous. people in this world are just too much for me to bear and I can’t deal with the pain in my heart for all those that suffer.

Please please report her. If she has mental issues even more so. I understand your fear – I would fear the same thing. But it sounds like she will harm them weather you complain or not. Plus I don’t think she would even get chance to harm them as they would / and should remove the rabbits immediately, then warn all local pet shops not to sell to her. Any breeder or rescue are going to instantly tell she isn’t capable. Are these rabbits going to get neutered? They would probably kill one another if they don’t breed and make more rabbits for her to hurt.

[Deleted User]

This is so tragically heartbreaking. I agree, you need to report her asap. who knows what she does to those bunnies, and that is certainly not proper care for a bunny.

[benjismum]

I have reported it as has another person.but I truly don’t think it will stop her as they can’t keep checking.all we can do is adore our bunnies. Mine are spoilt and treated as my children are and the joy I get from them keeps me going

[Bam]

Benjismum, please try to take care of yourself now first of all. I think you really should try to concentrate on the rabbits that you are helping. Every and each little bunny that you have helped and is helping is a great victory. They would have been worse off without you. You are making a difference.

If this girl has mental issues, maybe she’s not really evil, maybe she’s just not equipped to understand what it means to own and care for an animal. Does she have someone who looks after her?

[benjismum]

Thank you Bam and everyone for their kind words. Like i say she is now reported by 2 people except we are not 100% where she lives. I dont know if she is evil or not. She claims to have behavioural problems but i am told her father has killed kittens and her other family all have abuse of animal cruelty.very wierd bunch of people.Im in a very dark place right now and need hynotherapy to help me sleep as all i see when i go to bed is this crumpled terrified frozen bunny in a heap on the floor, thinking i had saved it and then hearing its dying breaths. I have experienced bad stuff in my life as have most people but this is the absolute worst of the worst.makes it worse that not only do the owners not care, they replaced it like an old toy. i could have held that rabbit in my arms and cried forever

[Bladesmith]

Thanks for what you tried to do.

That’s all I can comment now. My blood pressure is right through the roof.

[MountainBuns]

That makes me so sad to here that some people do not respect animals as much as we do. Those people are mindless and inconsiderate. Do not blame yourself for your mistakes. You even went the extra mile for that one bunny. Most people would have left it there to suffer but you tried and used your time, gas and money to try and save that bunny’s life.

[Gordo and Janice]

Yes, as the old saying goes….you can’t save the world. You try….and the best you can do is the best you can do. You have a rabbit, you foster, you run a lost and found. You are doing more than 99.999% of most people for the little rabbits.

Don’t beat yourself up. As bad as that was, it is probably happening all the time all over the world. Keep doing and focusing on what you are doing with your work. It takes someone special to spend that much time and effort. There are countless good outcomes that you are creating with what you are doing for every bad outcome such as the one you just endured.

Sorry you experienced this but at the same time I’m glad the little bunny’s life ended in the arms of someone full of love for them. You were the best person for that little bunny in that moment.

Hugs

[benjismum]

Thank you so much for your kind words.made me cry my eyes out your final line.thank you xxxx

[benjismum]

Thank you for your kind words xx

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