She was only 10 months old. I’m beyond heartbroken. The last month she had been getting on and off sick, almost went into stasis twice and her condition kept going up and down. We spent weeks with the vets, having scans, x-rays, everything . Still couldn’t find the answer, so treated symptoms each time and brought her home. Just 5 days ago she was looking great, hopping around my room and sleeping on my chest. We had such a close and magical bond I couldn’t even begin to surprise. A few days ago she started to get gassy and uncomfortable again. I took her back in and they said she wasn’t looking good. They decided to keep her in overnight and in the morning they rang me to say that they finally figured out the problem  after consulting a specialist and she wasn’t going to make it. She had a very rare complication as a result of her spay a few months ago – gut adhesion. So after all this time it was a complication from her say which was making her sick. I rushed to the vets and held her for the last time. She looked so sick and weak, the vet said the likelihood of operating on her guts being successful was so slim that it wouldn’t be worth the risk. So I had no choice but to PTS.

I lost my father as a child and so have been through grief before, but this, feels so different. I feel so empty inside and her miss her so much. I can’t stay in my room, it feels so empty without her bouncing around. The last night she was sick, she came and slept in bed with me right by my head. My poor baby. I feel so powerless, I tried everything I could to save her but there was nothing I could do.  I had her spayed thinking it would protect her from cancer in the future, but due to a cruel twist of fate and only what the vets could describe as  “Terrible bad luck” she is gone.

My bunny and her love got me through this awful and difficult past year. Last night I fell asleep alone and prayed I wouldn’t wake up. I dreamed she was alive and recovering, and woke up to the harsh reality she is truly gone today. I thought we had her whole life ahead of us together, and now it has been so cruelly cut short. I have no idea how I’ll make it through this.