I decided it was best for my bunny to go to a new and better home. Here is why:
-To this day, I couldn’t really handle her. She hated being picked up and would nip and bite me. I couldn’t get her to stand still. I couldn’t truly manage her.
-I couldn’t give her the best health care. After the most recent GI stasis episode, I realized my parents probably wouldn’t take her to the vet if needed due to how expensive it would be, especially without insurance. I don’t want her to die because I couldn’t do anything.
-Due to some of her accidents on the carpet, my parents made her live in a small confined space that made it harder for me to spend time with her. I couldn’t fully fit into it and we didn’t have a lot of space to do stuff.
-With the puppy addition, I have had to not only wake up earlier but have had to take time out of my day to help deal with the puppy. After both taking care of the puppy and theo in a day, I would not get into bed until midnight or later.
-In addition to everything, these things just started to make me less enthusiastic towards Theo. I started to see spending time with her more of a chore and less of something enjoy. I nolonger truly appreciated her being here. (I am sorry theo.
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I feel very very horrible for all of this and I would not have adopted her if I could have seen the future. I told the lady I wouldn’t let her down but I ended up just being like the people who get bunnies on easter and give them back in.
The worst part for me is, it feels unfair to show love to the dog when I couldn’t do it for theo. We can pay for dog insurance, feed her, cuddle with her, but for me it just makes me feel like a bad person when I do it knowing I should have done this with Theo more often too.
I thank everyone here for helping me when I needed help, but I also apologize for letting you guys down too.