This Thursday, I got a call from my mother informing me that my 9-year-old dog Sadie had to be put down due to a severe skin condition. Just earlier that day, I had discovered the Rainbow Bridge forum and the poem itself. For the rest of the day, I couldn’t get the forum or the poem off my mind, right until I got that call. It seems so surreal that it happened the same day of all of this. Regardless, I am honestly so devastated. It has been so long since I saw her, and I would give anything to spend another day with her. 4 days beforehand I got my new rabbit, Beaumont, and I feel so horribly guilty. I feel like I betrayed my dog by getting him, and for some reason I feel that the two things are related. I don’t think there is a dog capable of loving more than she did, and it feels like a cruel joke that she was taken so soon.
Still somewhat in shock, just not sure what to do. Want to focus on Beaumont but am so scared of showing him love now. I am a bad owner. Feel sick to my stomach.