Im in bunny hell.
I thought i brought home 2 males in february. Turns out 1 was female and they’re older than i was told. She had 12 babies total, we lost 2 tho. 

 I had an atrium built of 120 sq ft with ramps and i open the doors during the day to give extra room the width of 2 dog fences. And man i give them every toy and treat, the best alfalfa, feed and litter i can find. It is obscene what this is costing me, but they are sooooo precious. Oh and when theyre ready for spay and neuter, a low cost clinic, 2 hours from home, is still going to be over $600. Plus renting a cargo van big enough to carry them all and a hotel to hang out at while i wait…. 

None of them want anything to do with me, they run like hell as if i had ever hurt them. Im spending $600 per month to be ignored? My heart is broken, i am a slave to cleaning their habitat 2 or more hours every day and because of these reasons i have begun to resent them. Now, theyre fighting, even the girls. I dont have space to separate any more than the 3 boys currently residing in my home, do you have any idea what that smells like? 2 were badly injured and need medical attention, and papa does not want anything to do with anybody any more, even me of course. Hes vicious with them and i doubt he will ever be reintroduced to the herd again. Then he chewed the power cord for the surround sound subwoofer….

 Ive called, emailed and filled out online forms for 5 rescue orgs, a sanctuary and 2 nearby shelters. Everybody says they are at capacity and unable to help me, even after I assured them all that i can make whatever donation necessary to take some if not all of them. Petfinder.com, rescueme.com and craigslist have attaracted 1 person who wanted them for food and 1 who wants a female to breed – i could not look myself in the mirror if i agreed to those terms of use. 

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. My fantasy of a pair of house rabbits napping with my dog on his bed or cuddling with me while i read is shattered. Im just going to go ahead and throw this out there too, im bipolar and disabled, the stress this situation is causing is dangerous for me. Im deeply depressed because i dont know how to ‘stop the hemorraging’ and get some relief of this level of responsibility and physical demands. I am past the breaking point that this is effecting my health. My marriage is suffering and so strained that we are discussing separation, my husband just wants his living room back and for our house not to smell like boy bunny and i see no light at the end of the tunnel.
Ive considered putting each one in a crate with small amounts of extra hay, feed and litter and leave each one on a different door step with a nice note explaining that their ‘person’ loves them very much but can no longer care for them properly and “PLEASE LOVE ME” Until then i continue to stay in bed all day, wait for the next cleaning, and cram bad foods in my mouth while sitting in the dark.

What would you do? Im begging for an answer. I will do anything, take them anywhere…. Please help.