It’s been going… I’m so happy to have them back with me, but I won’t lie… I still feel like the standard of care is not where it should be. When I’m working, I’m gone for 13 hours/day, then come home and crash almost immediately, so they’re stuck in their pen. Poor babies. It’s not like they’re cramped or anything, but they just love having full run of the house. And I don’t get a chance to straighten up their room, so the hay bits and fluffs of fur and whatnot find their way into every corner of the apartment. (We’re in the middle of what will be known as The Great Shed of the Twenty First Century.) I feel a lot of guilt over the fact that I’m gone so much and can’t take care of things the way I would like to.

That being said, it’s so wonderful to see my little buns again. The other day, I was walking from the dining room to the kitchen (they’re separated by a wall) and Calypso literally binkied around the corner toward me… it was so cute, I almost died. lol. I’m tearing up just thinking about the time I spent without them.

To be completely, one hundred percent honest (please don’t think I’m a terrible person), I feel like I’m in a no-win situation. The bunnies are a piece of my heart, and I just can’t imagine ever giving them up again. At the same time, the stress and guilt are killing me and sometimes it seems like I made the right decision the first time around… Basically, I’m torturing myself. It sucks.

Sorry to hear that things are still hard.

What are your days off like? If you can let them out for a couple of hours a week that’s better than nothing. And even not coming out at all is way better than the unknown fate they may have met if you had not taken them back. Most likely they never got out with the people you just got them back from. There’s tons of hutch rabbits that never get out and are alone. At least yours have a loving care-giver and a bunny buddy.

And I still say you were meant to have these bunnies back. Things will work out eventually. Even I feel guilty about my standard of care for my rabbits and they get quite a bit of out-time. You have to stop beating yourself up. **Hugs**

Just a thought: Of course, I have no idea what your financial situation is like, but maybe you know a kid (like tween aged) that would be willing to go over to your house after school for a half-hour or an hour and let the bunnies out, brush and spend time with them for a bit of spending money as payment? Kids that age are always looking to earn a few bucks and that would be easy work for a kid that loves animals. You could ask around. I’m sure someone you know would know a responsible kid who would be willing to “bunny-sit”. You could even put an ad on kijiji. There are a lot of kids around here looking for jobs as a dog-walker so I’m sure you could find someone interested.