Thank you so much for your thoughts, prayers, and condolences. They are appreciated.

I logged in to share an experience I had this morning while dreaming that has brought me great deal of peace after struggling for the past few days with details and guilt that circumstances (late night weekend, no exotic Vets on call in the Richmond/Chesterfield/West end area that weekend night or Sunday morning, the fact that I searched through his meds to find even a drop of pain medication only to turn up with nothing left) had prevented him having any easing of pain, or possibly saving him. I have been very down about it, and missing Max terribly. Up until this, I couldn’t bear the thought of storing away his habitat, water bowls, or toys (I buried him with his food dish and Karen wrapped him in his baby blanket). It just hurt too much to know I would never see another Binky from him in that pen when I got home.

People who are close to me know that I vividly lucid dream, I always have, and while I can think, see and at times alter my dream, I have never before had the sensation of touch or direct ‘feeling’ in a dream, which is why I feel so strongly that this dream was in fact not a dream at all, but something more.

I was sitting on my bed as it is now, watching Orio play, when I felt a gentle wieght and heat beside me. I would know that feeling anywhere and instead of looking down I looked at the pen that I knew wasn’t there thinking, “He’s gone… this cant be…” Where there should have only been one pen set up, as it is now, there was two. I looked down in disbelief to see Max snuggled next to me. I rubbed his face and back for as long as I could and I could feel his heat and fur, his life inside of him, and I put as much love as I could into those pets. After a few moments he quickly flipped his head to the side (his custom for kisses) and licked my hand and fingers. As he was doing this I felt a strong sensation that he was saying to me, “This wasnt your fault Mama, I love you so much”  After a moment more, I felt the ‘goodbye’ between us, and woke up with so much peace.

Please understand, while I am spiritual,  I am not a mystical sort of person and while I wanted to believe that pets move on to Heaven,  it isnt something that is really discussed in the Bible that I am aware of, so I really wasnt sure that pets move on in that way.  Yet after this, I am unable to say to that they dont.  I know I would never have seen him in that way if he was truely gone. It has been a great comfort to me, and I hope anyone reading this who has lost a bunny or other beloved pet can take comfort from it.

Thank you Max, Mama loves you sweetie Have fun boppin’ around in Heaven!

Kathy, Thank you so much for lighting a candle for Max.