Torn the rotator cuff in June.   Surgery tomorrow .  Sort of like my knee artheroscopy the shoulder will be same like that.  So I can move it right away.   Just not all the way yet.

Gosh it hurts and I sleep on my right side and thats the one that hurts. 

Kind of nervous.  I know it is simple procedure not a big stay in the hospital type surgery.   STill nervous tho.   And the stress with my son and his legal issues   and my Mom.   Sheesh.

I feel sort of like crying.  But I can’t seem to.   I hate feeling like this.   It is hard to describe.  Not enuf to cry over but feel like crying. 

It will work out.   I am relieved for my son.   Things are being paid up for him mom had to go take out a loan.  I feel bad about that.  She is retired and doesn’t have much $ anymore.   I am on fixed income trying to pay off this pet deposit.  He knows I am barely making it. I don’t have that kind of $ to help him.  

I really feel he will do right this time around.  If not he won’t receive any more help whatsoever and consequences will have to be gone through.   Being he has a fiancee and those kids I think he is doing better now.   Staying out of trouble.  HE doesnt’ have a license cuz when he was underage around 14 he got a ticket for riding his bike without a helmet.   His Dad never paid it so he could not get a license they gave him a # and suspended it.   Yes florida for you.   Then he had been doing things that he had run ins with the authorities.   So all those amounts  on top of each other. 

Now he can get his license hopefully and not get pulled over for driving w/out license.  Which yes is crazy but he never had enuf $ or a job long enuf to pay all his stuff off.    This time of getting caught and violated his probation due to it his consequences are very serious.  So mom is paying it.  I hope it is worth it.  I think he will be smart now.  He sounds like it.  Last chance son.   Last chance.