OH MY GAWD, I FREAKING FOUND IT!!!!

I’m in tears!!!

Excuse my capitals-abuse, but I just found an EXTREAMLY important sentimental thing regarding Binkles that I THOUGHT WAS GONE FOREVER!!!!

HOLY FLOPPING BUNNIES, I FOUND IT!!!!!!

Ohmigawd!! Ohmigawd!! OH-! Ohhh..

Haaaah…okay. Calm yourself, Sarah..

Whoooo……

Okay here’s the story! (Warning: a TAD of mild language ahead. =x)

Let me take you back five years ago, to when I was fifteen. Firstoff, let me state that at the time, we had no idea that rabbit overpopulation was such an issue, so we got Binkles from a pet store -but a GOOD pet store. Locally-owned. That takes CARE of their pets.

But anyway.

The day I got Binkles, I was just standing there, holding each one of the bunnies in the litter over and over trying to decide which one was going to come home with me. Heh, I recall my mother saying ‘One of these bunnies is coming home with us today!’ The past week, we’d been by the pet shop a couple of times and seen the litter -about six or seven bunnies. Two had stood out to me in particular -a black one with a white belly (silver martin..?) and a little brown agouti one…but we certainly didn’t want to base our choice on colour alone! We wanted to see their personalities! So here I was in this pet shop, holding all of these bunnies off-and-on for about an hour trying to make a decision. I’d pretty much narrowed it down to about three, but was at a stalemate other than that. The brown agouti one was really pretty and easy-going, but the black one also had a nice demeanor, and let me tell you, when you are fifteen…a black bunny with a white belly is REALLY ‘bad-ass’.

But then, the moment of truth.

I was holding that one little agouti bunny again when suddenly, she reached up and…NIP-NIP!’d decisively on the wing-tip of my dragon necklace. (“…YOU are my Mommy!”) My mom and I both looked up at each other and smiled, both of us thinking the same thing. “…I think I know which one is coming home with us?” she said. In that split second, the idea of having a ‘bad-ass’ black bunny with a white belly had completely left my mind. I knew which one was meant for me. I knew I was meant for her.

Binkles…as we say…’chose’ me..

That dragon necklace…has always since been something very special to me. The chain on it broke later that year, so I had to stop wearing it and got a new, slightly different one (>< which also broke soon thereafter..). But I always kept the original dragon around. That one little nibble on its wing…had started what was -other than God and my parents- the single most important relationship of my life..

Time passed, we moved about nine different times due to hurricane displacement, I grew up a little, and after about three years, I began carrying the dragon pendant in my purse -so it could be everywhere with me, sort of as a good luck charm. Or just as a feel-good reminder.

Then, about three months ago..

I was at my job -Walgreen’s. When I came out to my car, I found the window smashed in and…my purse was gone from the passenger seat.  At first it didn’t immediately come to me that the dragon was in my purse. But when I realized that, I was devestated. There was nothing else of value in my purse…no money…no credit cards…maybe a Wal Mart card with $3.50 left on it…there was a Nintendo DS system and games in it that cost a total of around $300…but all I really cared about was that necklace. They could HAVE the other stuff -I don’t care! Take ALL my money! Just give me that damn $10 necklace back..

..in the end, all the #$@!ing theives managed to steal was something very, VERY sentimental..

Yes, yes, yes… I left my purse on the seat of my car. But…I THOUGHT this was a relatively crime-free town. I’m just…young and stupid though.

Walgreen’s has no outdoor security cameras, so there was NO way to track the thieves down, much less get my necklace back. (….cheap idiots…makes me feel REALLY safe parking my property there while I’m WORKING for them..) All I could do was file a report with police. They weren’t very encouraging…most purse cases, apparently, are never resolved -and the few that are, are found YEARS later with all the contents gone..

So that was three months ago. I got my window replaced, graduated, other things happened, and eventually the whole theft really faded into the background. Yes, I’d lost a very special item, and I was angry about that. But I had what was more special than anything in the world; my Binkles. And that made losing the dragon necklace nothing much more than a shoulder-shrug..

Then…July 13th..

And I wished to GOD that I had that necklace…oh, GOD, it absolutely tore me up that I’d lost it. The thing that brought me and Binkles together…so special…gone..

As a comfort, I kept telling myself ‘maybe someday they’ll find it; it’s got to be out there somewhere..’ but inside I knew it wouldn’t happen.

Then one day not long ago, as I was looking at the dragon necklace that I now wear (the  third one xD), something curious ocurred to me..

..it seemed like I could remember a time, on a trip or something when I was missing my Baby back at home, when I had pulled that necklace out from somewhere, held it up to my mom, pointed to a place on the wing, and said -‘Right…there!’- and mimicked her nipping it. My mom laughed and said. ‘Yup!’

There was something about this foggy memory that stuck out to me…I can recall -as I was biting the part of the necklace where she would have bitten- feeling a bit strange about it…almost as if…perhaps…my memory was….wrong…? The dragon that I was biting had its wings folded down, and the place that I was biting -where she would have bitten- was the part of the wing where there is a horn-like joint sticking up at the top..

..for some reason…even at that time, it felt like the dragon wing she had originally bitten at the pet store was out-stretched above its head so that she bit the tip end of the wing -not the joint.

THAT would mean that IF that were the case, and the dragon that Binkles had bitten had its wings outstretched, the dragon charm that I was demonstrating on then was actually the wrong one. Which was very possible, since, remember, I bought another -similar, but not exact- dragon necklace -that also later on broke- to wear in lue the one that Binkles had bitten.

Last night, I looked at some old photos of myself from around the time period that I got Binkles and, yep! Sure enough -the dragon necklace that SHE had bitten had its wings outstretched. Not down-folded like the one in that foggy memory.

The question was -was the pendant that was in my stolen purse that one or the real one..?

So I began to have a little tingle of hope inside.

I began to tear my room apart, looking for either dragon -to confirm or deny my suspicion. When at last I thought it seemed I’d gone through everything, I all but gave up. MAYBE I’d find one of them one day, MAYBE I wouldn’t. But neither of the two seemed to be anywhere in my reach..

Well..

I was looking at my finances tonight. >< Deciding I needed a little more than what is currently in my bank account, I began searching through my drawers for stuff to sell on eBay.

And then..

…I saw it.

I just froze and stared at it wide-eyed for a moment. I swear my heart must have stopped. Was I seeing things..? Was it just a peice of metal that from an awkward angle looked like Binkles’ Dragon..? Was it the WRONG dragon…? I plunged my hand down into the mess and messilly pulled it out.

My eyes flooded and I began to sob -happilly. I cried and cried..

The wrong one was in my purse all along.

After losing so much over the past month..

…a little peice of Binkles has come back to me.